Norm

I have lost something. I can't find it. No matter how hard I try, everytime I get close to grabbing it, it slips out of my hand. What have I lost? you ask.

The normal. Normalcy. Normal living. Normal life.

Norm.

Where have you gone my friend? It has been such a long time since you and I fell into our same ol' pattern. Our ways and habits of yesterday are lost.

Norm left me sometime this summer...actually, perhaps it was earlier this spring.

He didn't want to be around when I was sick and yucky and green. Trying to fight the nausea.

He came back for a short while. A very short while and then left once more with the loss of our patriarch and since then he never really returned. He surely did not come back since Ike came around and so here we are.

Ike really scared him. Norm is nowhere to be found.

My son, for example is still in his baby sister's room. As he states, "It's raining in my room." And is still not fixed. Hopefully the three walls, ceiling and door frame will be fixed inteh next few weeks, but in the meanwhile, his bed is crammed into his sister's room which is holding her crib, her dresser/changing table, our old computer desk, chair and antique armoire. All that in a 10x 13 room.

And when I though maybe norm was about to make his appearance this week. When crazy kid and I finally fell into a nice weekly routine...Monday we clean, have quiet time and go grocery shopping, Tuesday we run errands, spend some quite time, go to the park...Wednesday we go to school, Thursday, another day at school, and Friday a fun day. We had maybe two weeks of that and then...here comes virus. And norm, again lost.

So this is what we are coming out of...someday.

Oh norm, will you ever return?

"Father I am desiring some kind of normalcy. I need some kind of control and my lack of control is really overtaking me. I want something, anything to go according to plan. I know I have to trust you but Lord...I'm having a hard time. Help me to really and truly give it to you and let you deal with it all. I want to be able to do that, but my head is fighting you. Help me give it all up Lord. In your precious name, Amen."